Time to get REAL!

Alright y'all, I've decided that it's time to get real with all y'all! In this virtual world of blogging and facebooking and whatever else there is, I try to show that I'm a happy, carefree person who loves every aspect of her life, and wouldn't have it any different, but you know what, I'm sick of doing that! Now I'm not saying that I hate my life or I want to leave or anything drastic like that, but I am going to say that I need to do some adjusting!
The past week or so, it's been rough for me! I realized that I have no real big goals in my life to accomplish. There is nothing right in front of me to grab or work towards and I don't know how well I can handle that. I've always been a person that has pushed herself and wants to feel accomplished. This time last year it was learning how to be a mother. I had to just get through the day without crying. Then in January it was finishing my degree. I had to work towards each assignment or day of class. Being away from Lily wasn't easy, but for me it was worth the hard work! Within that time, I decided that I was going to better myself and lose weight! That has been a journey of it's own that I'll talk about later. Once I got the degree then it was time for rest! I needed to take time out for me and that's just what I did.
Well now, I have NOTHING! What am I working towards?! I have no deadline to keep me going! If I don't get something done one day, that's fine I can just do it tomorrow. I keep doing that until before I know it it's been a week and it still hasn't been done. I have just been laying here on my couch, lonely, tired, bored, and completely and utterly unmotivated! Lily has been sick and I've been taking care of her, but I have also used that excuse to not do anything as well. I can't seem to get myself out of this FUNK! Todd comes home and asks what I did today, well nothing... I can't answer him when he asks that. It's tough being home all day with a one-year-old. Don't get me wrong, I love being a mother! I love being the person that Lily wants to play with! I love playing with her! But for some reason I don't feel accomplished in that aspect.
Since it's been getting colder, it's been harder for me to get out of the house. I used to go on a walk every day and I think it's been at least a month since that has happened now. I get bored doing workout routines in my house. I like to add spice to that and there's only so much you can do on your stairs for a workout! I felt empowered when I first started this journey! I loved being active and getting into shape, I still love the feeling after a good work out, but I still lack the motivation to TRULY push myself into working hard at what I am doing. I've been trying to find crafts or something to that effect to do, but that can get expensive and I'm not very good at finding my way around the store and I usually only leave with about half of what I intended to get in the first place. I need to boost myself up and become the person who I want to be again! Am I the only mother who feels like this?! Because honestly that's how I feel!

Memoirs of a mother with a sick child!

Lily has had a fever the past two days and it is AWFUL! Last night she woke up with a fever of 103 degrees and it scared me silly! We called Todd's aunt who is a nurse before we freaked out and took her to the ER, since we don't have any insurance on her. Luckily within an hour it went down a few degrees and helped me sleep without worry. Today, she has taken INCREDIBLY short naps (10 mins if that) and she just looks exhausted and absolutely miserable! And of course she is still smiling and talking to me. I love how positive she is all the time and the spirit she brings into our home. She truly is a happy baby! It's sad because she hasn't really eaten either and I've been trying to get SOME food into her but she'll take maybe two bites and be done. If any of you have any suggestions on how to get her to eat I would love to hear them! She's also had a bad cough and has four teeth coming in right now. So I think it's all coming at the same time and she's been such a trooper! Oh I hate it when she's sick!

Carving Pumpkins!

My Pumpkin, it looks a lot cooler up close!
Todd showing his intimidation face...
Lily did really good at carving her own pumpkin... she worked that knife just right! hehe
A family shot! We went to a friend's place tonight and carved pumpkins and ate pumpkin seeds. It was a lot of fun! Todd and I haven't ever really been too much into that, but I had bought three pumpkins to decorate our front entry, so I figured we might as well carve them! I'm glad we did! It was a lot of fun, and I think they turned out quite awesome!

Why even buy toys?!

My dad took us to Costco on Tuesday, and while I was cleaning up the boxes from our purchases, Lily decided she wanted to play with them. I had some really old fruit snacks, and she seriously played with those for at LEAST an hour. She was so funny! I don't think I'm going to even buy her any more toys, just boxes from Costco!

The Cruise

The Ship The "Elation"!
Waiting to embark in San Diego! Oh it's so beautiful there!
The view as we took sail! Talk about beautiful!
Elegant night! We looked good!
Ensenada, Mexico!


La Bufadora, a blow hole located near Ensenada. It was so cool, but it was REALLY difficult to get a good picture of that.
Todd and a 100% native of Mexico. He had some cool dancing and music going on!
Playing massive Chess, Todd tore it up!
The infamous folded towels. We had a seal the first night, an eskimo the next and then this dog the last night we were there. It was fun to see the different things they had.

We had such a blast! We fell in love with being on a cruise. The price was right and we are already planning our next cruise! It's been way to long since Todd and I spent that much time alone together. It was much needed and such a great trip. We definitely missed Lily, A LOT! She was excited to see us when we got back, which was great! If you guys are ever thinking about going on a cruise, DO IT! But you want to go to in like September or October because it's MUCH cheaper!